Waiting Through the Fog

I read a quote today that really touched my heart: 'Life is not lived in the long, downhill stretches of expressways, but in the obscure, perilous trails and back roads where we stumble and feel our way through the fog of our unknowing. Life is not a run. It is just one step of faith after another.' -Richard Paul Evans

God is faithful. We hear this statement a lot, and sometimes we say it because it's what makes people feel better, or because we don't know what else to say in hard situations. I am here to tell you, though, that He really is. It's not just a random sentence in the midst of a trial...it is a sentence that is true. It's written all through God's Word. I have doubted that God would really come through for me before...if I'm being truthful, I have lived in a world of doubt for the past few years. I cried out to Him, waiting on Him to rescue me from a situation that seemed hopeless. He was faithful to always give me strength to endure for the moment, but as a whole, I waited...and waited...and waited. I was told that if I chose divorce, that He would not bless me. I was told I would be living in sin...and that God's favor would never rest on me again. Let me be clear here-I do NOT encourage divorce-EVER! God hates it, and there is a reason why. My children's lives have been thrown into utter chaos, along with my own, and this is not how things were supposed to be. The people around us have been hurt and burdened. My heart can hardly take it thinking of these things, but I know that God gave me a choice. I chose this road, because believe it or not, I believe it's the right one. But if you are in a situation where you can choose-do everything in your power to keep your family together. I did, it just didn't quite turned out how I planned. Which is what makes God's faithfulness even more beautiful to me. He promised He would never leave me or forsake me-even now-and I promised back that I would look for Him in every little thing. He provided a job and a month to month rental house for the 6 months I was still in Kentucky, He got me home to Alabama (there were a few weeks where I wasn't sure I would have permission to leave the state of KY), He has given me supportive friends and family, He provided a place to live in Auburn (a town I love), and He has now given me the job of my dreams that I didn't even know I was looking for. Those things are all external things, but things we needed.  I could go on and on about the emotional needs He has met. I have found out that I haven't forgotten how to laugh-oh how I missed laughing until I cry! I have found joy in parenting again (I was just getting through the day for so many months). I can sleep again...and oh what a blessing to be able to finish a meal! My Father has not only blessed me, but He has blessed me beyond measure. Definitely more than I deserve. I can hear Him saying, just a few weeks ago, 'My child, wait for me'. I waited...and waited...and waited. And He showed up. He IS faithful. The choice to trust, my friends, is ours.

'And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus' (Philippians 4:19)

'Because of the Lord ’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.”' (Lamentations 3:22-24)